一直不覺得累
很晚也不想睡
難道我又開始進入失眠嗎
躺下
腦子總是轉著
告訴自己不要想工作的事
不知不覺中開始在想~~
25日回到日本後 我先進公司
26日一定要去準備好年貨 準備日本新年
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孩子的房間真的太小了 快點搬到大一點的房子吧
屋內灰塵太多 要進入花粉季了 要快一點打掃
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網路訂購系統的設計真的完善了嗎?
所設計的行銷計畫真的可行嗎?
趕不上今年的聖誕~~那明年的情人節 我趕得上開張嗎?
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突然意識到自己還沒睡
強迫自己閉上眼睛
告訴自己 "已經很晚 身體已經累了 睡覺吧"
反覆幾次催眠自己後 果然睡著
但睡著後 很忙
不停的做夢
不停的跟自己對話
彷彿聽到T的咳嗽聲 突然想到T一定又踢掉被子
翻身又起床 替司蓋被子
一個晚上 很快就過去
總是看著窗外微微亮
聽著送報人的摩托車聲
盤算著該起床準備早點與便當了
然後一天又開始了
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總是下午經常性的偏頭痛
實在忍不住時 就吞一顆PAIN KILLER
但這樣的狀況 只要離開日本 擁著T入睡時 便改善很多
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It is really casue life is too busy??
or casue i am getting older
too many things have to do
even i feel i did nothing yet
just like tonight...we had dinner with one smart lady
she is a very smart for business
she runs her own company well
looking at her...thinking about myself...
what did i do and what will i do
suddenly i am a bit in panic
i want to catch more time and do more
i want to let everything go faster, even time...
i want to be succeed...i need to be succeed
no room to take a rest
no room to stop
no room to look back
just go ahead...keep going ahead...
i believe....i will see my SUN...
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i remember your words...you told me "順著生命的河流~~不要逆向而行"
i am doing...but i just find it is not a quiet river
following it...following GOD...following nature power
i will learn how to relax when floating
i will learn how to slack off when too fast
i think i can find my compass
then i wont lose the direction during a storm
