北緯34.4度

一直不覺得累

很晚也不想睡

難道我又開始進入失眠嗎

躺下

腦子總是轉著

告訴自己不要想工作的事

不知不覺中開始在想~~

25日回到日本後 我先進公司

26日一定要去準備好年貨 準備日本新年

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孩子的房間真的太小了 快點搬到大一點的房子吧

屋內灰塵太多 要進入花粉季了 要快一點打掃

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網路訂購系統的設計真的完善了嗎?

所設計的行銷計畫真的可行嗎?

趕不上今年的聖誕~~那明年的情人節 我趕得上開張嗎?

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突然意識到自己還沒睡

強迫自己閉上眼睛

告訴自己 "已經很晚 身體已經累了 睡覺吧"

反覆幾次催眠自己後 果然睡著

但睡著後 很忙

不停的做夢

不停的跟自己對話

彷彿聽到T的咳嗽聲 突然想到T一定又踢掉被子

翻身又起床 替司蓋被子

一個晚上 很快就過去

總是看著窗外微微亮

聽著送報人的摩托車聲

盤算著該起床準備早點與便當了

然後一天又開始了

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總是下午經常性的偏頭痛

實在忍不住時 就吞一顆PAIN KILLER

但這樣的狀況 只要離開日本 擁著T入睡時 便改善很多

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It is really casue life is too busy??

or casue i am getting older

too many things have to do

even i feel i did nothing yet

just like tonight...we had dinner with one smart lady

she is a very smart for business

she runs her own company well

looking at her...thinking about myself...

what did i do and what will i do

suddenly i am a bit in panic

i want to catch more time and do more

i want to let everything go faster, even time...

i want to be succeed...i need to be succeed

no room to take a rest

no room to stop

no room to look back

just go ahead...keep going ahead...

i believe....i will see my SUN...

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i remember your words...you told me "順著生命的河流~~不要逆向而行"

i am doing...but i just find it is not a quiet river

following it...following GOD...following nature power

i will learn how to relax when floating

i will learn how to slack off when too fast

i think i can find my compass

then i wont lose the direction during a storm